Dear Readers...YES!
With the help of the Lord, I ACCOMPLISHED SOMETHING! I reached PART of my fitness goals from last year!
Last year I resolved to reach my fitness goal of 150 (it was calculated that I would probably only be able to reach 160 in the time frame that I was to train with Soldier Bell)
So here I am in 2013 at 160! I have ten more pounds to go! woot woot! And get this: My church is doing a 12-hour fast this month...talk about kill two birds with one stone -->Get closer to God AND lose the remainder of my weight??? MY GOD IS GOOD OH!
Truly He is a good God lool, only He could've orchestrated that or known that I would be struggling to reach that final goal...so it's gonna be just as it was in the beginning of this journey, ME AND GOD!
Last year the Lord convicted me. He said your body is the temple where the Holy Spirit dwells and right now this temple needs to be rebuilt. How could I say no to my beloved Father? He truly listened and helped me on my way. He brought all the right friends, support systems and resources, not to mention a whole new wardrobe as incentive LOL
Truly as much as I commend Soldier Bell Fitness in his field of expertise, I have to give an even bigger round of applause to the Lord... for HE was my comforter when I would cry before and after a training session, HE was my cheerleader on the days where I dreaded or struggled to go the gym, HE was my friend who laughed with me when I was so sore the next day I couldn't sit on the toilet properly, HE was my counselor when I would be tempted to binge eat or eat for comfort....
I can say, Jesus was my one and only true friend through this whole experience. He is just an amazing guy and I wish that EVERYONE knew Him like I do LOL! We're still drawing closer and I know that this is just one of the many journeys we are on....I will soon upload videos and pictures of what I eat, my fitness goals/achievements.
So again shoutouts to my homie Jesus for being with me through iiiit alll! The tears, the pain, the confusion, the joy, the sheer discovery of self...
I am truly a new creature, from within!
Je t'aime papa! I couldn't have made it without you xox
To conclude:
IF IT WASN'T FOR HIS GOODNESS TOWARDS ME....
I would be dead by now
IF IT WASN'T FOR HIS GOODNESS TOWARDS ME...
I would still be shackled in bondage (fear, anxiety, depression, suicide)
IF IT WASN'T FOR THE LORD'S GOODNESS AND KINDNESS TOWARDS ME
I would have no hope for a better future, a better tomorrow
BUT GOD...
I am thankful that I have a friend in Jesus, for He saw me at my worst, loved me at my worst and carried me through my most painful hour (sadly I can only admit that in retrospect)
Sometimes we think He is nowhere to be seen because the storm is raging and the wind is howling.
I pray today for a heart, mind, soul and spirit of gratitude for all of us today friends. This will allow us to see His goodness even through the darkest hour.
